Dear Body…I’m sorry

Where to begin? I have bullied you more than I would like to admit. I’ve put you through the ringer, both physically and emotionally. I have abused this vessel of life…and I want to say that I am sorry.

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Body of mine, you are unique. You look like no other – one of a kind. You behave like no other. You are a masterpiece and I have no excuse as to why I often forget this fact. You do not deserve the harshness I have bestowed upon you for a decade. You deserve much better than that. I do not deserve you.

Honestly Body, when all the madness began I thought I was helping you. I thought those ads and fads told me the truth. I was young and naive. Only years later did I realize that I was causing horrendous harm to your efficient structure. After much damage I finally understood that the goals I was shooting for weren’t even real.

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Yes, Body, you deserve better and I promise to always give you better. This society does not support your well-being. They all want you to suffer and be hated. But I see through them now. I know they are liars. They are too ignorant to comprehend your beauty and worth.

I will be smarter. I see your value. I see your magnificent power, endurance, and capability. I am beyond lucky to have you, Body. You are a wonder of the world all by yourself.

Forgive me, Body, for my torturous past. Together we will make the most of this life. I see your true colors raging inside and they are vibrant. They are beautiful. The skin, the scars, the face, the frame – they are all sublime perfection. You and I, we make an unstoppable team.

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Thank you, Body, for sticking with me. Thank you for carrying me through the years along many adventures. More are soon to come and I will care for you diligently throughout them all. That’s a promise.


A Survivor of a Diet Society

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3 Reminders from Teamwork

The third episode of Mighty Morphin Power Rangers brings power weapons and a bull monster to the world of children’s television.

Honestly, what more could you want in a 90s show for kids? Here are three life lessons from the episode “Teamwork.” (Ironically, practicing teamwork isn’t one of the lessons I got from this.):

1 – Advocate for a cleaner earth (or anything you feel strongly about).

The episode begins with Kimberly and Trini working on a petition to close a factory that’s polluting the environment. They work on getting signatures from their friends and classmates and later head to the factory to voice their opinion.

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If you feel strongly about an issue and want conditions to improve, it’s likely going to take some ground work. Making a difference will require putting yourself out there and informing people, just like the girls do in this episode.

2 – Bullies are…trash.

There’s going to be a lot of bully bashing as I rewatch Power Rangers, thanks to the infamous Bulk, Skull, and Putties.

In this episode, Bulk and Skull end up in trash cans and later on, putties do as well. This is perfect symbolism to represent what bullies are – trash. I know that many who resort to bullying have psyche issues, but it doesn’t excuse the way they treat others.

Don’t be a putty. Don’t be a Bulk or Skull. You’ll end up in a trash can.

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3 – If it’s not working out, take a break. Take a breather and regroup.

The bull monster man was kicking some Power Ranger butt, so Zordon sucked the rangers back to headquarters. He gave them a pep talk and some new power weapons, and then sent them out to try again.

Humans have a bad habit of pushing and pushing until we are completely drained. If you know something is not going well, don’t push it. Don’t pursue and continue forward. Instead, stop. Just hold on, observe the situation, and assess what’s going wrong.

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Call a timeout, make a new game plan, and go from there.

“Teamwork” gave us the advice to advocate for causes we are passionate about, don’t be a bully – they’re trash, and to take a breather if life isn’t working out.

On a less serious note, I also learned not to teach a robot how to dance. They’re not built for it and they will end up destroying the control panel.

I can’t dance anyway.

Thanks for reading. Watch out for those bull monster men.

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5 Invaluable Insights from Jane Eyre

Charlotte Bronte gave the world a novel called Jane Eyre in 1847. Even over 150 years later, people continue to read and enjoy this amazing book about a girl growing up, venturing out into the world, and then working for a mysterious host.

There are many lessons to be learned from this novel, but here are the five that made the biggest impact on me:

1 – Move on, even if it’s scary and unpredictable.

“I remembered that the real world was wide, and that a varied field of hopes and fears, of sensations and excitements, awaited those who had courage to go forth into its expanse to seek real knowledge of life amid its perils.” Narrator, Ch. 10

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There’s so much out there in the world to see if only we are brave enough to leave the comfort of our homes. It takes courage, but it’s worth it. It was certainly worth it for Jane – not without challenges, but she always found a nice place to rest.

2 – Know who you are.

“If all the world hated you and believed you wicked, while your own conscience approved you, and absolved you from guilt, you would not be without friends.” Helen Burns, Ch. 8

In your heart, you know who you are and what you stand for. As long as you have a clean conscience, it shouldn’t matter what others think. Jane was picked on at her new school in the beginning due to her aunt’s harsh words, but she survived because she knew she wasn’t the demon child her aunt made her out to be.

3 – Forgive.

“No ill usage so brands its record on my feelings. Would you not be happier if you tried to forget her severity, together with the passionate emotions it excited? Life appears to me too short to be spend in nursing animosity or registering wrongs.” Helen Burns, Ch. 6

Holding grudges does nothing but harm the person holding the grudge. Forgiveness is the path to a peaceful soul. Jane’s aunt treated her horribly, but Jane wasn’t free of that hate and suffering until she forgave her cruel aunt.

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4 – Keep your dignity and stand firm, always.

“…and I don’t call you handsome, sir, though I love you most dearly – far too dearly to flatter you. Don’t flatter me.” Jane, Ch. 24

Don’t let others try to sway you and fool you with charisma and flattery. Jane knew who she was and what she was and she would accept no more and no less than what she knew she deserved.

5 – Being alone is not necessarily a bad thing.

“…without a companion, yet not feeling lonely…” Narrator, Ch. 6

Being by oneself doesn’t mean lonely. It can be liberating to spend time alone.

On a less serious note, by reading Jane Eyre I also learned that if a potential spouse is crazy, the money you’ll get by marrying him/her is NOT worth it.

Jane Eyre is great. I suggest you find a copy and read it because you just might learn a ton about life. Even if you don’t learn anything, you’ll be entertained by a heartwarming story.

Thanks for being alive, learn from everything, and stay true to yourself.

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Dear God…Where are You?

Up there or not, I write this letter. Perhaps not for any other reason than to vent my thoughts on the subject of You. Because of all the contradictory information and evidence…I still want You. I still feel I need You.

So, what’s a lost soul to do?

There are no answers in the Book. There are only lies from the people who preach it. The institution wearing Your “symbols” are more corrupt and evil than the beings they antagonize.

Therefore, forgive my lack of faith. “Faith” must be blind and “believing is seeing?” Why? Why not come down from time to time and just rip into our hearts? Show us what You are. Save us that are lost because with only vague enigmatic words written by men to go on, we are more lost than ever.

And then we are shamed for being such. Not because of what the liars and abusers of Your symbols say – no, they have no relevance. They are death in human bodies. Instead we are ashamed because we do feel you. Because we do need you. We want You and we know You are watching. Yet, we wander. We walk around with no aim or direction because our destination is hiding Itself from view. It’s covered in dense fog and thick walls of stone. We feel if we really deserved it, You’d show us something.

So you see, I’m truly sorry that I’m frustrated because Life is mine and the world still spins. The creatures are beautiful and the skies are blue. The Sun rises each day. And still…You aren’t here. You never show yourself and let us know You. You only give us metaphors written by men of ages passed that were probably man made words to begin with.

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On second thought…You know what? From a lost soul who still craves You, don’t give me answers. Keep away, up high on Your throne of clouds. Answers won’t lead me anywhere, because there’s nowhere to go. Proof won’t ease my soul because my soul is destined to wander. I was born to wander this earth in search of something that can never be found, can never be touched. That’s Life. And it must be felt.

I will still see You, though, in the eyes of creatures and the lands of Life. In every Sunrise I will glimpse your face. In every dying star I’ll feel Your power. I suppose, that’s my answer. That’s my sign and reassurance. That’s all I’ll ever get from You in this life…And that’s enough.

A lost soul I may be, but when the rays of Sunlight hit my soul, I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Don’t give me answers, they won’t lead me anywhere. They won’t satisfy me one bit. I see You and I want You. I feel You in the Sun.

Perhaps that’s all I need. No books, no bigots, no lies and shame – just the Sun.

The Sun is the sign – the sign that You never left me.

Earth and Sun, Life and feeling, rays and breath, creatures and connections – those are the true answers I need. Those are the journeys for a wandering soul. No destinations.

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I’m lost by choice but not without You. You are always there, silently allowing me to wander because that’s when You show Yourself to me. In being lost, I find You.

So, God of Earth and Sun, God of Life – I understand. I will remain lost.

Lost is Life. Lost is wonder. Lost is a gift to always seek exploration. Exploration leads to You.

I will see You soon, God of Sun and Earth, at Sunrise.


A Lost Soul

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4 Eye Openers from High Five

Episode two of Mighty Morphin Power Rangers, Season One is called ‘High Five.’ We start out with Jason climbing a rope in the local gym/juice bar and later on get to some alien fighting action. Rita Repulsa does her usual screaming and whining and the rangers do their usual kicking and morphing.

It’s only an eighteen minute long show, but here are the lessons I found in ‘High Five’:

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1 – Don’t make fun and talk trash if you can’t back it up.

Jason climbs up a rope and ungracefully comes back down. Bulk teases Jason for the fall, yet Bulk is unable to hold himself up on the rope at all. Bulk ends up making a fool of himself for teasing and then performing poorly.

It’s best to stray away from trash talk of any kind, but if you do it, at least be able to outdo the person you are teasing. Otherwise you’ll end up looking like a fool with a big mouth. Typically anyone who makes fun of others is a fool with a big mouth anyway.

If you boast about how awesome you are – be able to back it up.

2 – Emergencies show us what we’re made of.

Trini expresses early in the episode that she’s afraid of heights. Later when the crew is being attacked by Rita’s Putties, she is forced to face a cliff to save Billy or be afraid and let him be attacked.

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In the heat of the moment, Trini faces her fear of heights and runs to Billy’s rescue. Had her teammate not been in a critical situation, Trini might have never pushed past her phobia.

Tough times can show us that we are capable of overcoming our personal obstacles.

3 – Use your own strengths. Don’t rely too much on crutches.

The team wants to morph early on in the story, but Jason tells them to wait. He says that Zordon wants the rangers to try and fix situations on their own before using the morphers.

Zordon wants to show the rangers that even without special powers, they are still strong and intelligent human beings.

This goes for all of us. We often become extremely reliant on devices and supplements instead of trying first on our own. We don’t need fancy equipment to live and accomplish goals, just like the rangers didn’t need morphers to fight off a few bad guys.

4 – Don’t talk about it, just be about it.

At the end of the episode, the rangers overhear a couple of men talking about the Power Rangers. The team just laughs and continues drinking their juice. They don’t get prideful or curious to know what more the men have to say, they just go about their day.

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People love to talk about their achievements and that’s fine. We should be proud of ourselves. But there’s a huge difference between boasting to others and being internally proud. Celebrate intrinsically. That’s when you know you’re doing what you love and not relying on feedback from others to give meaning to your work.

That’s High Five, Episode 1:2. Four life lessons hidden inside a cheesy kid show: back up your claims, emergencies show us what we’re made of, don’t rely on external power, and live your life instead of talking about it.

On a less serious note, I learned to never accidentally drop my weapon off of a cliff while being pursued by aggressive clay men. That should be a no brainer, Billy. Grip your morpher tightly next time.

Thanks for reading and try not to get caught in a time warp today. Life is hard enough without time warps.

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3 Ways Captain Marvel Taught me About Life

Marvel blessed the world with three movies last year, one of which was Captain Marvel. Some loved it, others – not so much. Either way, there are a few great pieces of advice found in the action and dialogue of this great movie. (If you didn’t guess already, I’m one of the ones who loved this movie.)

1 – Use your strengths regardless of what others say.

Those unique quirks are yours, and you deserve to put them to good use. Don’t let your team captain make you feel bad for using powers. If you have something special (which we all do), use it.

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2 – Not everyone is who they say they are.

Maybe we don’t have real life shape shifting Skrulls running around pretending to be grandmas and agents, but we do still have to deal with false people. Unfortunately, it’s common to come across someone appearing to be someone he/she isn’t. Not everyone is a good, trustworthy confidant.

That being said, honest people do exist. We just have to be genuine and sift through the fake-ness.

3 – We all have a choice.

When Carol learns her life for the past few years has been a lie, she makes the choice to help those truly in need. She could have made any number of other decisions, but it was her choice.

If something doesn’t feel right – make a choice and change it. We all have that incredible power.

On a less serious note – I also re-learned (what I already knew) not to mess with cats. (Or Flerkens?)

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Use your strengths, watch out for those pretending to be someone else, and know that we always have a choice.

Learn from everything. Have a good day 😬

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This is How the 3 Power Ranger Rules are Life

In the first episode of Mighty Morphin Power Rangers, Zordon lists the three rules of Power Rangers that he says all given the power must follow.

These are rules created for a fictional set of power enhanced humans, however, the rules do have value for all of us in the real world as well.

Here’s what can be learned about life from the three rules for rangers:

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Rule #1 – Never use your power for personal gain.

This applies to anything in life. If you have power over someone or something, use it for good. Don’t exploit people and situations in order to gain more for yourself.

If you have more money, more skill, more emotional power than others in your life – use it for good. We are lucky to have our unique strengths and therefore we should use them to make the world a better place.

Rule #2 – Never escalate a battle unless Rita forces you.

Rita is the villain and represents all the stressors of life. Don’t make situations worse than they have to be. Keep your emotions in check and the scenario will play out more smoothly.

Some people like drama and love to throw fire on the flames in a fight. This only ends in creating more damage for everyone in the aftermath – emotionally and physically.

Stay calm and let things go. Don’t make an effort to make arguments worse. Take care of the issue at hand and move on.

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Rule #3 – Keep your identity secret. No one may know you are a power ranger.

Do good for the sake of doing good things. Be a hero for the sake of saving others. Too often we’re only interested in glory and recognition.

When fame and pride are the goal, it undermines the heroic actions and leads one to only do what’s right when others are watching.

Anonymous good deeds won’t get you followers on social media, but it will make the world a better, safer, and kinder place.

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So that’s how the three rules for power rangers can be used in the real world. Basically, use your skills for good, don’t instigate more fighting, and be heroic even if no one is around to witness it.

On another note, I learned that there’s always a catch. A giant floating head with a robot sidekick won’t give out power without setting some ground rules. Which, I suppose, isn’t such a bad thing.

Thanks for reading this post. Go out and use your power for good.

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3 Lessons from being Chased by a Goose

It was a nice, sunny, breezy day and I held my 18 month old niece as we walked the nature trail. We saw many birds and turtles along the way. In one area, we saw a couple of geese hanging out. Geese are beautiful and pretty large. I inched closer to get a better look.

My motto has always been “curiosity > caution.” The goose closest to me began to make a noise that sounded oddly similar to a cat hissing. The next thing I knew, the big bird began to charge and I ran from it holding my niece tightly.

What did I learn about life?

1 – Respect others’ area.

Personal space is serious. Respect the area that others call their own. We all need a private place to eat, sleep, and hangout where outsiders aren’t always welcome.

2 – Heed the warning signs.

If there’s ever any indication to turn around and move on – take it seriously. Don’t push the limits until someone gets hurt. If a giant bird hisses at you – turn around. Quit messing with it.

3 – Expect some repercussions when taking chances.

If you invade personal space and ignore warning signs due to undying curiosity- be prepared for some repercussions. Exploration is great – you just have to know that there might be some backlash if you go too far.

On a lesson serious note…but also seriously – don’t mess with geese. They don’t play around.

Have a great day and if you see a goose out and about – don’t try to be his friend. He might attack you.

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3 Lessons from Day of the Dumpster

In 1993, a kids’ television show called Mighty Morphin Power Rangers was released. It featured an evil witch attacking the earth while a group of teenagers fought to protect our world.

Power Rangers might be cheesy and for children, but there’s some good stuff deep down in the dialogue and symbolism. Please bear with me and check out what I learned about life from the very first episode of Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: Day of the Dumpster (S1E1):

1 – Bullies are idiots.

Bulk and Skull enter the juice bar early on in the episode with clumsy music playing in the background. They pick on people, they’re obnoxious, and they’re…idiots.

This paints a great picture of how we should view bullies. They aren’t big and strong, they aren’t admirable, they’re just greasy antagonizers who try to make others feel bad about themselves.

2 – Crazy claims mean nothing without proof.

Zordon explains to the teenagers that they’ll have power and zords to control when they morph. The kids don’t believe Zordon and they leave.

Quickly, they’re attacked and they decide to test the morphers. It worked out well for the rangers and that power Zordon mentioned, turned out to be very real.

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My point here is, we should all be skeptical of the crazy claims out there. Some of the ads and products we are sold are ridiculous. Let’s be wise and search for actual proof before we buy into an insane idea. And I mean REAL proof – like you have lived this and tested it yourself, just like the rangers did with their morphers.

3 – Unlikely friendships might lead to a great team.

The five teenagers chosen to become rangers are all different. They are a diverse group with a variety of personality traits. A team should have a dynamic set of skills among its members and this ranger team is an effective example.

Zordon matches each ranger with an ancient creature according to his/her unique style:

Add them all together and we have ourselves a pretty awesome and well-rounded hero.

The first episode of this long-running kid show taught me that bullies are idiots, get proof before you believe something wild, and that different skillsets build powerful teams.

On a less serious note, I learned that if you find a 10,000 year old well on a distant planet – don’t open it. That should be obvious.

Thank you for reading this post and I hope you have a nice day on a planet not under attack by a space witch and her docile minions.

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3 Hard Lessons from Never Getting Closure

Closure, when referring to relationships, is bringing the connection to a close. It’s the conclusion to feelings, memories, and time spent together. Maybe feelings go on and memories pop into the head for months after the closing, but closure means peace has come to the mind and soul at the ending of the relationship.

So, with that being said, what happens when a person doesn’t get closure? What happens when the story lives on without a conclusion or resolution? I’m sure it’s a different experience for everyone, but here’s what I learned from never getting comforting closure:

1 – Sometimes you just have to move on.

We want closure to everything and we HATE not getting it. We dwell and dream of how great it would be to have a final talk to put everything out on the table. And sometimes, we get that. But other times, we don’t. Things can take a nasty turn and end abruptly without anyone getting to release caged up emotions.

The life lesson to be learned is that even though it sucks and painfully rips into the sensitive heart – it’s time to move on. Dwelling to hope of closure is extremely damaging. Yes, closure helps in the moving on process, but it’s not one hundred percent necessary. We can all move on just fine without it.

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It might take a little bit longer and a lot of soul searching, but accept that closure isn’t coming and get started on the liberating journey of moving on.

2 – Writing letters without sending them might seem weird and cliche, but it can actually let out some of the tension leftover from an ended relationship.

Write it down and let it out. Tell that person what he/she meant and the feelings surrounding the relationship. Talk about everything. Write twenty pages if it feels necessary.

When the letter is completed and everything is down on paper, seal it up. Let it sit for a couple of days and then shred it pieces. Burn it, if you want to be intense. Either way, let it out, destroy it, and then move on.

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3 – Get Help.

Moving on is one of the most difficult tasks on the soul. Get professional help because it can really aid in the process, and there might be more going on inside.

On a less serious note, I learned that any person who would treat me that way is absolutely horrible anyway. That was a terrible person I’m lucky to be free of.

So without closure – sometimes it’s best to just move on and writing letters can be cathartic. That’s what I learned.

Have a great day and move on from anything holding you back.

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